Me anew...

woah...i never had the time to write here again...been job hopping already yet i wasn't able to relay it here. I'm currently working now for Globe, yes you read it right, i can rightfully say now "R U 1 OF US?". :) Better compensation, better environment, better career path for i am into management path now. It's more than 3 months already and had just been regularized. Despite of the good things happening to my career, still barely the same with before, still looking for something in which i don't have any clue what it is.

Oh yeah almost forgot to tell the things that had happend to me for the last months. I lost my 02 mini pda phone. While i was on my way home, it was stolen in my bag. Didn't even felt anything despite my bag was opened then and there. The first time ever had this kind of incident since i started my life here in manila. Hmm... of course i was hysterical then and even wanted to curse whoever did that but i came into realization that maybe there's a good reason why it happend. Maybe something bad will happend in my life and in order to avoid that i had to lose my phone. With that it's better to leave it unknown rather than have regrets in the end. I haven't bought new phone, and i don't know when will i buy. Still thinking if a new phone is where i really want my money to spend at to.

I know you've been looking for my entry regarding my heart matters, hahaha! I got you there! I'm happy right now, starting to realize something out of the experiences i'm having... to appreciate what you have right now and don't look for better one...coz it's really true, someone better will come along but you have to stick to the one whom you entrusted your heart with. Well its up to you to decipher whether i'm single or not hahahaha! Just one thing i am starting to appreciate what is NOW.

New things about me? Now i stand for what i want and on how i should deal with my environment. I'm only clamouring what has been meant for me all along. I'm not an as*****, i'm just trying to straighten things out that was bent through my life and that includes showing people around me who i really am, sorry if i don't agree with what you want. Just don't want to be a lap dog.

deep within my soul...

Whenever you're near me i feel like i'm safe
Whenever you're far i feel like i'm missing
It's hard to see what my life means
But when i'm with you everything is clear

Living without you is like living alone
Heaven is with you, missing you is hell
You see in me what others can't see
You make me realize how special i am

But now, i am already awake
It was just nothing but all dreams
You laid me into a serene slumber
A feign world of love and beauty

Little by little it poisons my every being
I was breathing sweet air...a fatal sweet air
It came to a point that i was already consumed by it
My judgment was clouded and my heart could no longer feel what's right.

When you made that move, you already casted your die.
Now its my turn to cast mine.
To forget everything that i felt, that everything was just a dream
A reality made only by half of love, your heart.

You need not to say sorry... you were just fighting for what you believed in...
I need not to say sorry... i was just that indispensable...as what you've made me realized.

What can i do without you My Jap-ed?

Last night i was able to talk to my jap-ed. I'm so happy coz talking to my jap-ed person made me feel better, like it has given me the will and strength again to survive this sadness that i feel. I told my jap-ed jap-ed that i can't make it this saturday coz our schedule was moved til next week. I'm still sad though coz i can't go with my jap-ed jap-ed this sunday to an event or such...told me also that jap-ed jap-ed will not stay long in manila coz jap-ed jap-ed said i'm not there so there's no reason to stay long there....that made my heart stomp a beat. I really really miss my jap-ed jap-ed so much...hmm...i just hope and pray we can really go home next week that it will not be rescheduled again...