Yesterday i have finally submitted my resignation letter. I sit down with my supervisor and discussed her with the new career opportunity that i have decided to partake. I made it in a nice toned manner, carefully selected the words that came out of my mind and heart. We both made the conversation lightly and fun eventhough it was a serious matter. I had the hard time explaining my decision because i wanted to tell her everything in a way that it is not awkward and not offensive, no matter how bad i felt in my stay here i still couldn't divulge it bluntly...it really is in my nature to look for the person's feelings. She took the matter in a very unbiased stand. The main reason is that i wanna go back on the development track. First, it was really the job that i love, second, i can't seem to out-weigh the stress im getting in this kind of job with the previous jobs that i had. And lastly, i don't have the urge and motivation anymore to see myself pursuing this career. I didn't even bother getting into the details regarding our relationship as supervisor despite the initiative she did during our talk, maybe because i want us to go on our separate lives still intact with professionalism just like the way we were when i first set my foot here. There were negotiations but i took the risk of declining them. This is something that i have decided and will definitely have no regrets in the end. I am responsible for my actions.
After we talked, she discussed it with our boss and to the senior in our section. I was expecting a 2nd round with her and our boss but it was just our boss who called me up if i have a minute to talk. As always, he is very heart-warming and very assertive person, he had only one question for me, "Is it still revocable?", and like the person i am, very sensitive and conciderate of other's feelings, i answered, "to much of my regret sir but i have already decided to go for the new opportunity." He understood then, explained that its acceptable but would really want me to stay if there's still a chance. He wished me goodluckand hopes that the relationship, the friendship i've established here will never end by leaving the company...for he politely stated that all the persons i've met here specfically our team were real friends, real people. Having it all heard from him made me sad for the people i already made friends with here will surely be miss.
Very few from our team knows it and i'm sure maybe next week or late this week all of my teammates will know of my decision. I am prepared but sad...i dont have any idea of the people i'll meet but im not afraid anymore...this is the circle of life...i already understand now...
Now i can sleep well although the feeling of sadness still lingers...floating into the vast ocean of mixed emotions...
