an encounter with a dinoSAUR on planet X'S XAM

i am a victim of my own game...hmm... oh well, there's this stranger... i fooled around and was noticed thinking that i made up an impression... i kept on glancing and smiling, having myself in view always so that i will be noticed. When i thought i have proven that my gutfeel was right that this stranger was eyeing on me, the stranger then flirted with somebody else. So for the last time, on my way out, i pretended i didn't made any of those moves and pretended it was unintentionally done. :(

hmm... it's really not good to make assumptions...for i get really affected by it hahahaha...

Upclose with an Exhibitionist

About last night, i was in glorietta waiting for someone. I decided to go to the comfort room to wash-up and freshen-up. A couple of guys went in and out of the confort room, different ages but there was one guy who caught my attention. He looked somewhat weird, i think he's in the 30-40 age bracket. He went to one of the urinals, took a pee. I was infront of the big mirror fixing my hair as you would all know that i'm vain when it comes to how my hair looks. I noticed the man for he has been in front of the urinal for so long where in fact 2 or 3 guys had used the urinal beside him already. Carefully i looked at him and to my surprise i saw his thing. He was doing something to his thing, something like massaging it. To my astonishment i removed my eyes to it and pretended i didn't see him doing it, continued to fix my hair. He didn't see me staring at him in the mirror's reflection but i know for a fact that he knew i can see what he was doing and to some sort he liked it, he liked that i can see what he was doing. When i looked at the reflection again, he was like pulling his thing with a hard grip, he was really showing-it off. I can see from the reflection that it's elongated and really hard. I got scared when he turned his head on the mirror and i know he was looking into my eyes then but i didn't look at him, pretending i didn't notice him and was focused with my hair. I quickly walked out of the comfort room and was a bit paranoid that he might follow me.

What is Exhibitionism really? It is a psychological behaviour wherein a person is extravagant to show off his/her genital parts just to satisfy his cravings, may it be for fun, for lust, to attract sex or simply for self-satisfaction. According to a research the most common of all reason is for sex.

Well i think it was also his reason for doing that, to attract someone for sex...sheezz...I was really lost then for i only see those stuffs in tv documentaries. I didn't think it was real and now i saw it first hand....Creepy...

30 DAYS OF NIGHT turned out 3 WAYS OF ANIMOSITY

I waited more than 2 hours for my friend....good thing i had my laptop with me then so i just did some work at starbucks. I was really pissed off that night for a couple of reasons. I made an early notice that the movie, 30 Days of Night will be 7:20pm, yet my friend was still at home around 7pm, to think that travel time will take more than an hour. Second, upon arriving at the area, i was instructed to go out of starbucks and meet up along the way...hello?!?! for goodness' sake, i've been here waiting for so long and my things are all out in the table and now you wanted me to meet up along the way?! Grrr... i was even blackmailed then that if i do not want to meet up along the way then might just cancel the movie... What an ass****. Third and last, so i left starbucks and went to powerbooks, i went inside powerbooks. I told my friend to go inside powerbooks and meet me there, here's what was really annoying, my friend was already outside powerbooks and didn't want to get inside and even asked me to go out...even did the same blackmail pattern before...what a spoiled brat! grr...

So to wrap it all up, we ended up watching the movie past 9pm and it ended past 11pm. I was really pissed but controlled my temper coz i really want to watch a movie then. Oh well, that will be the last time! :s

MCDO...

At long last another option during lunch time has opened here near office...Today is the grand opening of McDonald's - Robinson's Pioneer branch. Funny coz despite of McDonald's being so common everywhere, people still went to the opening and not just in normal volume but a very crowded one. hehehe... Kris Aquino was also there for the opening along with McDonald's Philippines CEO.

I'm going to watch movie later as planned, i hope it will push thru and will go along just fine, a bit nervous with the person i'm going with. geezzz...

Me anew...

woah...i never had the time to write here again...been job hopping already yet i wasn't able to relay it here. I'm currently working now for Globe, yes you read it right, i can rightfully say now "R U 1 OF US?". :) Better compensation, better environment, better career path for i am into management path now. It's more than 3 months already and had just been regularized. Despite of the good things happening to my career, still barely the same with before, still looking for something in which i don't have any clue what it is.

Oh yeah almost forgot to tell the things that had happend to me for the last months. I lost my 02 mini pda phone. While i was on my way home, it was stolen in my bag. Didn't even felt anything despite my bag was opened then and there. The first time ever had this kind of incident since i started my life here in manila. Hmm... of course i was hysterical then and even wanted to curse whoever did that but i came into realization that maybe there's a good reason why it happend. Maybe something bad will happend in my life and in order to avoid that i had to lose my phone. With that it's better to leave it unknown rather than have regrets in the end. I haven't bought new phone, and i don't know when will i buy. Still thinking if a new phone is where i really want my money to spend at to.

I know you've been looking for my entry regarding my heart matters, hahaha! I got you there! I'm happy right now, starting to realize something out of the experiences i'm having... to appreciate what you have right now and don't look for better one...coz it's really true, someone better will come along but you have to stick to the one whom you entrusted your heart with. Well its up to you to decipher whether i'm single or not hahahaha! Just one thing i am starting to appreciate what is NOW.

New things about me? Now i stand for what i want and on how i should deal with my environment. I'm only clamouring what has been meant for me all along. I'm not an as*****, i'm just trying to straighten things out that was bent through my life and that includes showing people around me who i really am, sorry if i don't agree with what you want. Just don't want to be a lap dog.

deep within my soul...

Whenever you're near me i feel like i'm safe
Whenever you're far i feel like i'm missing
It's hard to see what my life means
But when i'm with you everything is clear

Living without you is like living alone
Heaven is with you, missing you is hell
You see in me what others can't see
You make me realize how special i am

But now, i am already awake
It was just nothing but all dreams
You laid me into a serene slumber
A feign world of love and beauty

Little by little it poisons my every being
I was breathing sweet air...a fatal sweet air
It came to a point that i was already consumed by it
My judgment was clouded and my heart could no longer feel what's right.

When you made that move, you already casted your die.
Now its my turn to cast mine.
To forget everything that i felt, that everything was just a dream
A reality made only by half of love, your heart.

You need not to say sorry... you were just fighting for what you believed in...
I need not to say sorry... i was just that indispensable...as what you've made me realized.