What can i do without you My Jap-ed?

Last night i was able to talk to my jap-ed. I'm so happy coz talking to my jap-ed person made me feel better, like it has given me the will and strength again to survive this sadness that i feel. I told my jap-ed jap-ed that i can't make it this saturday coz our schedule was moved til next week. I'm still sad though coz i can't go with my jap-ed jap-ed this sunday to an event or such...told me also that jap-ed jap-ed will not stay long in manila coz jap-ed jap-ed said i'm not there so there's no reason to stay long there....that made my heart stomp a beat. I really really miss my jap-ed jap-ed so much...hmm...i just hope and pray we can really go home next week that it will not be rescheduled again...

Homesick..missing a lot.

Despite the fact that we went to the mall last night and the possibility that i'll buy an O2 Xda Mini but not for me...my mom said its for her, i still lonely...in fact i got so down again last night when silence starts to succumb my room...my heart was like being pierced, then i remember my jap-ed jap-ed and my family and then everything went so sad again...

I can't put in words what i felt last night...i just don't know anymore...all i did was pray to Him that He makes me strong and intact with my inner sense. Guide me as i go thru this...and lastly i asked Him to give us a strong foundation of trust and love coz i'm starting to rattle here...i don't care of the money that i have, i just wanna go home... :"(

Sucked up by loneliness.

Last night i felt the gruesome feeling of loneliness again. Until now it's still crawling in my emotional stream. I don't wanna cry again tonight. I wanna go home...there's too many reasons that makes me like this...homesick is killing me... too many things going thru my mind. i can't control it anymore...i miss a lot of people...i miss my family... i miss the philippines... i miss my 'jap-ed person' ... i feel so terrible... i miss my jap-ed jap-ed person...

Exit to Cambodia: what a wreck!

Yesterday we're so exhausted and dog-tired. We went to Cambodia just to have our visa renewed, so that we can stay here in Thailand for a month again. The trip to Cambodia was not nice because we left here 5a.m. and arrived there at around 9a.m. The place looks like a remote area, its like civilization hasn't reached the place...with what i saw i can say that the country has unstable economy. The place looks scary coz its dusty. Beggars and street vendors are everywher. The place has this unpleasant odor. Despite of the dreadful stuffs, there were also some good places like the casino-hotels and the duty free shops. After going back to thailand, we first head off to Holiday Palace, its a casino-hotel in Cambodia. We had our breakfast there and it was splendid coz there were lots of food served in buffet style so i got myself on festive wahehehehe... after eating to my desire we went for a walk around the hotel and look at the slots machine and etc...

After we got our visa's, we returned back to thailand, On our way back, there was a check point somewhere along the road and we were asked to pull over at the side. The driver said something about Philippines and passport, we couldn't understand them coz they were talking in thai and the driver can't speak english. Then the policeman asked us to show our passport. At first we were hesistant to give them, Ms Bing asked why he wanted to see our passport and he said "check", maybe he just wanted to check if what the driver has said was true. Maybe the driver told that we came from Philippines and just renewed our visa's. After checking our passports, we're back on the road. We arrived in the hotel at around 3pm .

Thanks to my Jap-ed!

My graduation was over and i didn't even get the chance to smell the scent of victory over college life...
I'm thankful for that special person who made me realize that i shouldn't feel bad about what happend...'person' comforted me, despite the fact that we're away from each other. 'person' showed me the things that i should be happy about, showed me how lucky i am and how my co-graduates will surely envy me because of whats happening to my life right now... 'person' appreciated everything that i do, notices it and gives recognitions to it.

I'm happy that God made our paths cross, I just pray that God will bless our relationship...I may not know what God's plan in the future but whatever it is I'm sure He's just teaching me and i can get over it. Im such a hard-headed person that's why He makes me learn that way hehehe...thanks so much my God.

Thanks my jap-ed 'person' for coming into my life...you are my very first thought in the morning and my last at nightfall...love always!

My Graduation Day :"(

Today is my graduation day. I really feel so sad the fact that i am not there, a very special occassion in my life... I don't feel good today... grrr.... if it isn't for this damn work i could have been there... waaahhhh!!!! i wanna scream!!!

i 'WAS' part of that plan

I felt sad again coz i got this email from my officemate who's also my co-graduate this coming may 11 and she told me about the activities of the graduation ceremony...i can be there if I didn't go here. Whoever thinks that its more fun to be here than to be in your graduation is a total a*****e!! Graduation day makes you realize that you've succeeded all the obstacles and tests in becoming a person ready to face the real world...its the realization, the fulfillment of one's self... now i will never be able to experience that feeling because of this damn work!!!! It's like i havent graduated yet coz i will not be declared coz i'm not there....and it really pisses me off...i'm really really mad about it...i wanna yell at them, to my seniors and boss for not letting me go to the graduation...its just 1 day...damn them!!!! There will come a time where i can have my revenge...i am sure of it and i will make sure that it will come...

Baht and Broke

We're on a tight budget today coz this is the last day of our allowance that was given to us. We just hope that they will send us another allowance within next week or else we're doomed...

i wanna buy new cell phone yet i can't coz i dont have enough money. I want the O2 Atom or Mini...but if i can't make it til the last day here i'll just buy the new Samsung D820 or the moto slvr L7... huhuhuhuh...

I miss a lot of people...my family, my friends and of course my special one...but i need to have this sacrifice if i want to buy them the stuffs that they want...i really want to buy them those... i just wish they are here with me coz pretty sure they will like clothes here especially my two sisters... ^_^v

At last its rest day tomorrow...well we will not go out tomorrow coz we're low on baht...hehehe...so we will just stay in the hotel...perhaps have a swim or go to the gym...

what? what?? what???

I'm really bored here.. we don't go anywhere else aside from the malls...sheezzzz...i didn't even get the chance to visit the tourist's spots and get a pic of it so that i can show my family and friends there in the philippines. waaahhhh!!!!! it sucks!!!!!

I'm really on a tight budget coz i dont know what mobile phone to buy, my choices are Samsung D820, O2 Atom, O2 mini and Moto L7....I also want to go shopping and buy myself some clothes...i also need to buy 'pasalubongs' to my friends...sheezzzz....really on a tight budget grrr.........